addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
"if you hyperventilate, you're going to hospital on your own"
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
screwed up time trial thing today. haha i'm screwing everything up, think i might've been a screwdriver in my past life (no sexual connotations there, i assure you). freak la, why the fish is my body acting in this manner?! or is it cos my mind is in such crappy shape that my body just follows. seven days! miracles can't happen in seven days.. or can they? i don't know. i'm panicking like crap. today while doing the 5k my entire body was aching. like every muscle in my body felt fatigued and just so tired. kept on coughing... in between coughs there were bouts of hyperventilation. ahha don't people hyperventilate when they're excited? maybe i'm so excited that i hyperventilate when i swim, bike and run. hurhurhur.
i don'ch know what my body's problem is la. notes to myself:
dear body, please stop making me feel like a nobody.
and dear mind, do you mind?! you're killing me over here.
my knees feel odd too. feet, knees, other joints. wth. freaking the shite out of me! also pissing the shite out of me. maybe that's why i had diarrhea over there... hah.
actually i shouldn't been blogging about such things. haha but i'm and emo vulgar angsty teen. who likes to do stupid things like vent on my blog. haha.
and my air spiridons have gone too soft. felt like nike frees. haha. like NO CUSHIONING at all! disgusting. to think i used to love that shoe.. ahh spiridon how could you betray me?! nike you are letting me down. haha you def know that sth is wrong when you start talking to your shoes.
i was dying laaaarrhhhh. howww. HOWWW!!!! wth wth wth wth. hahaha, quite funny. while i'm on the verge of death, someone gives me the glare and says, "if you hyperventilate, you're going to hospital on your own". ahhaha i was already hyperventilating for the past 10mins so .. ahha. anw who ever said that hyperventilating= bad thing. hahaha. sure does feel like shit when it happens though...
I NEED NEW LUNGS! someone willing to exchange? or buy me new lungs. haha. someone go learn how to do lung transplants! pc doctor! go learn then you can operate on me. hahaha. ooh or give me gills! gillyweed. haha anything.
ayeeeeeeeeee okay must start mugging more. wah i'm putting on lotsa weight. haha i can't think straight.